ahh

the thought of u moving on ,
put a stop to my heart..
and im off in peace

ill always remmeber, i loved you the most and u hurt me the most.
u are the biggest Lier ill ever meet

CT u deserve nothing but the best, i believe in what we do we do for a reason.

Take care.

new life

ive stopped this blog and started a new one hoping it would all start again.....

this one built many memories....

sads mostly...

Interview with God

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtqMxUFb_uQ

what would you ask him ?

would u ask him about the past, the present or the coming future?

If you could ask him for soemthing what would it be?

we are never able to forgive others till we forget ourselves...

If you could ask God to love someone who would it be, or to care extra for soemone else

If u could ask God to forgive who would it be? and why

I have so many things to ask God but everything I want to know isnt about my past but of my future, why he choose this certain path for me...

I trust he has a plan for everyone..

spring

Cold wind hit my face and I suddenly felt so cold,

times like this a hug near by wouldve helped... or just a feeling to fill my heart...

springs suppose to be just round the corner... but why does it still feel so cold...

I dont feel like this everyday, Ive had my fair share of good days, stressed days from uni and work... its been almost 10 months of no work, and finally found one that I am happy with ...

There are times I just gaze up into the sky and wonder why, why those things had to happen the way they do .... I fear more and cautious of all that surround me.. Trust came so easy before but now seems to fade away in the distant.

why did it happen , we will never know.. clock wont wind itself so I pray that i stop thinking back , It does no one anygood , looking back and feeling it again like as if it was yesterday...

Everything has a good moral and ending , everything makes you stronger....
bad and good....our path is what we make it, we choose to do what we did to be where we are, the friends we have the love we get and the work we do ...

tha old feeling

that old feeling just doesnt seem to go away ..

the stale feeling of betrayal.. the betrayal but the one u trusted the most...

in a short time has been destroyed...

trust cant be built anymore... i left my best friend betray our friendship for a relationship ... he then took it and gave it away to someone he knew for a few days,,, words he sais to her still peirce my heart,,, the i miss you and cant wait to go back... i got that msg after 9 yrs.. she got it after one dinner and a weekend...

someitmes life isnt fair but we go on.. we learn not to trust.. we learn to have thoughts. bad thoughts but we dun hate...

i let u go but i cant stop looking back at the pain u accuse me of causing when all i see is a darkness of your selfishness..

u picked me up , held my hand made me safe but once we reached the middle of this broken bridge u left go and ran ahead...

u escaped things u want to avoid, ur afraid of what is good..

but from u i learn to stop and think about those that surround me, are u really my friend or are u going to betray me too...

last words here

I waited you never returned,

instead you ignored and brushed my words aside,

but yet when a request was made you did it, I was out and replaced by her..

I listen to my mind to let you go , but my heart wont let me....

we always have to give time itself time....

i've lost you a while back, and if you cant forget the past, you'll never move on... so the next best thing is to forget..

I'm disappointed my best friend let me down this path only to take it away from me, you promised me many things, this is why I took this path and not the other..

I belived in what we have, our communication our ability to read one another and the silence we spend together, it is like none other,

we all need to grow up, especially in the way we think. some take longer then others, and maybe when u realize it, it will be too late...

you've broken my heart yet when u returned each time you patched it back up, over and over again I let you do that... till you yourself stop doing it to me. You dont see past the past and faults at the postive things one does for you.

you choose to close both eyes and hide urself behind $
that will only be for a while..

fly away like the butterfly, not knowing what path it should take...

I don't really want to say goodbye I don't really want to leave you But now I have to go away Stay away from you forever  What we had was something special Deep down from our hearts But now I have to go away And leave you from my heart

My life is in the dark
and i m all alone
i am starving for one spark
for he has gone

With the increasing darkness
hopes for the lights have grown
as the joy is awaited by my lonliness
i am waiting for my dawn

When i think,why am i alone
why everybody has gone.
why my night is so long
i find reason as “me”

I make one,i break one
i win one,i loose one.
its due to me that every body has gone
thats why,still i am waiting for my dawn

Today even my night is crying
i can see clearly everywhere
my dead thoughts and feelings lying
i am craving for the answers i am asking-

Why my life’s house is empty,
why there is no one in my heart’s lawn
why i am not enjoying my night
why? why am i waiting for my dawn

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just read...

Some people give up too easily. If, for example, they can't get an answer to a question, they ask a different question instead. One thing you learned long ago, though, is that if your question is not getting an answer, it is probably the question you most need to ask. If you keep on asking it, over and over again, sooner or later you will get your decisive reply. Never mind what has happened in the past. Forget previous frustration or confusion. Clarity will come if you patiently persist - and resist pressure. Jupiter, Neptune and Chiron are now forming a rare, powerful triple conjunction.

interesting....