one hot night

Been awhile since ive been back here...and form the count down of 6 weeks its now 5 days till i get to see my Chocci bear again :) sappi huh hehe but thats the wah I am..

so we had a really be fight yesterday ... this whole talking at nights is hard cos thats when we are both most tired...we dun get to see each other during the day .. and it really sux..

ah my definiation to the dream i had... about him, something blue. old school and suicide.. ya i know its strange huh ... not sure wh y though
it is somehow very accurate
"To dream that your boyfriend tells you that he is gay or that he doesn't love your anymore, represents your own insecurities with the relationship. It may also mean that the relationship is moving to a new level to which you are expressing some anxiety and fears about the changing situation. You may feel left out it in his life or that you are unable to share in all his experiences. It boils down to trust and communication.
To dream that you commit suicide, denotes that conditions in your life is so frustrating that you are no longer willing to cope with a situation or relationship in the same way as you did in the past. Alternatively, you may be unable to overcome feelings of guilt and thus turning the aggression on yourself. On a more positive note, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself or character that your have been carrying around.


tonight is so hot... u know sometimes i wish i was going back to sg or indo for good.. just leave perth and on visit for holildays]

why ?

Some days I wake up and I'm high as the sky but other days I'm down to the fly floor....
The thought of not being able to see you in the mornings is frustrating... or when I'm in need of a hug i go over... I'm running so low on love and care.. I need a re-fill.... waiting for the last 7 weeks was super hard....5 weeks have gone by and its these last 2 weeks thats made it extremely hard...I know its not long away but 12 days is a long time.... but You promise You will make up for it in the next 3 weeks ok...

our story of this LD is hard... it starts we do great then we are apart... and it repeats it self over and over.... But I know as long as we hang on together we will do great....

What happens when we are together? are we gonna fall apart ? we gonna get along?
thinking a little too far right? but theres always a little bit of confusison cos we dont get to be with one another everyday so we are actually missing out on each others daily routine... thought we talk day and night its not enough..

need the constant physical and emotional status..

we live so far away...
its like internet dating but with love.. :)
in some sense that 8 yrs has a factor..its played a role... secretly its helped us get to where we are.
with trust and faith in God we will have the strength to do this....