Can you belive its already march..., new yrs just seemed like a few weeks ago, was in bali hopping everywhere having a time of my life..
went to the movies today ,watched confession of a shopoholic chiq flick ... well anyways i dropped veron home and as i was driving home i started thinking 101 things in my head, maybe cos i was driving at 50km behind a bus and it made thejourney seem so endless. I was thinkin im 24 with a great family... i know it seems a bit odd but it hasnt crossed my mind in a while the whole, im the only one of my kind. I know its a little confuessing but how do i put it.. so when i was 21 i found out i was adopted.. it was like BANG! a quick dream becoming reality... i never relaly put so much thought into it.. but as i was driving home i realized i have the best possible family i could ever ask for.. my parents are my parents and nobody could ever replace them no matter how annoyging they can be at times and how strict they are with the whole curfew i love them dearly...
i have to admit though i am curious about where i;m from .. i really have no idea... my history is a blur to them and to me. Ive tried asking but they say they dont remmeber or know anything, is it cos they want to protect me from the truth ?
maybe its cos of my age i know 24 is young but lately i've seen babies and they seem extra cute ... maybe cos i want something that is truely mine.. someone to care for that cannot be taken away from me.. my own... my own blood, own creation..
How could anyone give up their baby for money? yes I have heard before "maybe they have a reason" well being in a gambling debt doesnt give you the right to sell your child for ANY amount so that you can keep ur dirty habbits. its so wrong! babies arent a piece of clothing or product that u make and sell.. yes i have a hatred in me that i cant explain nor have i tried to.
its impossible to see what I am going to do.. I can either find my history or not....
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